My Indigenous People

Indigenous issues blend the colors of our culture and times in tumultuous moments of marriage, the shock and joy of a first interracial kiss, and a curious mix and revelation of careers. The meaning of black and white blending instead of dividing makes us wonder and shudder what to say of the behavior my indigenous people. David Bowie called Australia’s confronting scenes of culture, a direct statement about integration of one culture with another. These issues reveal themselves in a dance and blend of black and white culture. Statements of integration reach the mainstream media due to the shock value of black and white people together in paradise.
Phillip Montgomery narrates his photographs of some of the most difficult recent race relation events. He would like to continue projects on policing in the U.S.

Often times, we shudder at the racism of many a now grandma born white in the 1890’s. Yet, in knowing this maybe my or your grandma, we are reluctant to know and have the white supreme history. Somehow a misappropriated attachment of superiority has to go along with everything we think about history as told by any grandma born to this history. The pulse of righteousness, or the wish to realize it, wobbles in us to create a sense of momentum. Meme’s of generations old white history attach to our daily struggle helping us along when we need it most. Soon we begin to take part in the divisive ideas we learned. There is a certain justification knowing we are right and safe with, this; our kind’s safety and history. The other kind is now a threat to safety.

Risk takes courage and elaboration. Ancient Sumerian stories tell a story of how the travelers built many bases, mines and cities. But in doing so they had to prove the cost to the folks and family from where they came. The travelers named their cities the Righteous Cities, distinguishing theirs from the mere mortal cities made by the indigenous humans. The great seafarers, Columbus, and Magellan along with these ancients all reported back to the homeland authority be it king queen or ancient legendary beings. The justification and the description depend on the author. On the personal human level, blending black culture and white culture in story and commentary divides by difference. Division shows up in the story of the Mark of Cain where the Sumerian gods named and setup differences with trickery in mind. The bible, in Genesis 4, tells a similar story where Cain slain Abel.

Cain Slain Abel
Jacopo’s Cain Slain Abel

Blending black and white shocks the idea of division, and manifests fighting and hatred. It also horrifies with the assertion that both black and white matter. The established method’s-of-mind that see light shining into darkness and the darkness has not overcome it, view a white and dark that commingle, turning around each other seems a horror to the foundations.

Any story of black and white, as persons, or as elements are by definition mutually exclusive. Somehow they blend on a spiritual level time wears on and black and white blend in a world of day and night.

We see ourselves as evolved. We don’t have the experience that 1890’s grandma brought to the living room, that we somewhat absorbed, while we watched golf on TV. Perhaps the continued show of an interracial marriage, of a southern town come to grips with sharing water equally, and the forgetting of victimization, will usher an understanding of light and dark commingling in a kiss of something beyond proof. We must take responsibility of our actions. When we take responsibility for the black lives and white lives we show we know what matters. Is this just duh or comment if there is more to getting it.

How we get along in a foreign land or a home land shows how evolved we are. Black and white issues, whether they are race, social, or spiritual, when put in a blender, require responsibility and acknowledgement of something utterly shocking, new, different, with reflection and higher understanding.



It was a beautiful night out at the A&W Root Beer stand. Dad made sure it was safe, and so did mom. Being only eight years old, I didn’t have much to do with that, but I was heavily involved in the rocks. If I could kick around in the rocks for satisfaction, then I might enjoy dinner’s juicy tidbits, as mom helped me discover. She didn’t say it, she simply helped me carefully pull out the hot fries so I wouldn’t burn my fingers. My stomach felt full on the ride home. I sat dazed in the back seat before I went to sleep.

Truth? Huh, try beauty

In the many instances that Terrance McKenna spoke of truth and what he learned in a college study of philosophy, he mentioned that his professor taught; that, of course you can learn the truth of things. That is the important skill we need to learn to take responsibility. Then he adds a juicy tidbit. Now that you’ve learned the truth, what of it? Huh? Well try beauty.

In Food of the Gods Mckenna puts forth eloquent and punditry explanations of psychedelic mushroom experiences as the foundation for the idea of the Tree of Knowledge. There is a beauty to this explanation. Moreover, Mckenna’s tone is that of calming, aesthetic and always up for a laugh either it be high brow chuckle or a gaff in the form of a generous takeaway.

When you can make something beautiful then you have taken what is true and constructed something new according to the rules. This is not an easy task. Consider music. The difficulty of obtaining a music career in pop music, among many, is exemplified in Macy Gray’s career. After having a signed record contract, she produced her first album only to learn that the recording company refused to publish it. With that devastation, and a marriage breakup, she returned to her hometown of Canton, Ohio. The demo tape however kept making the rounds between recording studios. Gradually she gained thumbs up of the recording executives and agents, and her efforts with the demo turned into a publishing deal that evolved into a full blown record contract with Epic. Take a look at what Billboard Magazine had to say, it’s exciting.

Read her bio on how she got her start and the difficulty boggles the imagination. If that’s not enough, then consider her success. Beauty in the World,

might be another tale that Mckenna would grab hold of to elucidate with his ornate and mesmerizing speaking ability. Her song and video went to the top of the charts as they say. The excitement of what’s beautiful, makes you want to shout.

We shouted yeah’s pulsated by the rhythm of our footsteps as we ran to the back of the station wagon. Dad said we could sit on the tailgate and eat our dinner. We waited for him to get out of the car and let down the tailgate after mom said don’t touch that. We had started to loose the metal latch. My hair was long past my ears those days, it seemed okay to me although I knew it may not be fancy or stylish like the New Yorker ads. The tailgate was heavy so my sister and I both leaned hard on the cold steel door to push it back. We could barely contain our excitement, as my sister shouted out something about where she was going to sit. I didn’t listen to what she said, but hearing her claim something, I had to say that I get to sit there too. The parking lot was scattered with pebbles from years ago paving, and an influx of rock chips from other areas. Most of the lot was just grey tar. The sunset air cooled the lot outside the A&W Rootbeer. I think I counted 27,000 rocks before dad let down the tailgate.

He lifted me up and then my sister. I think she objected to where I sat. He soothed her when he lifted her up and she was satisfied for the attention and good seating. The tailgate was uncomfortable as it was hard and cold. As I looked at my sister frown at the discomfort, I realized that I too was grimacing. A mild fear set in at the discomfort of hard cold steel pushing on our legs with the rocks below our little feet. We were about eight years old, still small and easily frightened. We began to moan and groan as dad would say. I felt a wave of fear about the situation but then came the cheeseburgers. All was well as the charm of soft, warm drizzling burger sandwiches were handed to us out of the paper sack.

The paper wrap felt plastic and waxy. I felt cold disappointment. I had been so elated to get up on out and eat my heart out. The despondent crackle of waxed paper and the nauseating feel of non porous coating over my food set me back. I looked to dad with the unwrapped cheeseburger in my hands. He stood there poised for entertainment watching me. As he smiled, he reached out to me and he unwrapped the contents. My heart rose to the consolation. I saw there was something I could eat. I bit into the cheeseburger with the ghoulish wrap. It melted away as I chewed. I couldn’t stop and soon enough I was done with it. My sister was enjoying her burger as well after dad unwrapped it so she could eat.

The tailgate lost it’s allure and I squirmed to the edge. Dad made sure I slid down with ease. I wandered around the perimeter of the car to kick the rock chips and slide my foot to grate the pebbles into piles. I reached to pick up a choice rock chip and mom said no. Dad appeared with a small packet of french fries. He put them in my hand and said they’re hot so eat them just a little at a time. The light brown packet held the fries in a bunch. I tasted one and it was melty and crunchy. I saw that I could grate pebbles and eat at the same time, and I eased into a mindless crunching on fries waiting for them to melt as I grated rocks and pebbles with the side of my white wall tennis shoes.

It was a beautiful night out at the A&W Rootbeer stand. Dad made sure it was safe, and so did mom. Being only eight years old, I didn’t have much to do with that, but I was heavily involved in the rocks. If I could kick around in the rocks for satisfaction, then I might enjoy dinner’s juicy tidbits, as mom helped me discover. She didn’t say it, she simply helped me carefully pull out the hot fries so I wouldn’t burn my fingers. My stomach felt full on the ride home. I sat dazing in the back seat before I went to sleep.

Cinema Box Office Hit

Perhaps the audacious vocals from the song Cinema, by Nazareth, intimidates a few listeners. However, the gentle piano, orchestra snipets, and violin solo can calm even the most animal mind. And yes, there’s those explosive guitar riffs.  Animal say ahhh! Cinema box office hits typically widen the scene with much to do and fun ruckus. The loud sound of Nazareth rucks it up in a tell it like it is feeling: crazy and empowering. Like leaving live music in an Irish bar, the end of the song leaves you in a lurch. You wander around momentarily, wondering was it a spell. The intoxication made it sound good. Yah!

Well, ruckus about a movie means more than you can have whatever, anything, as long it’s box office. Sometimes the simple means more than the well thought out explanation. Some old cultures say, whatever is, came from a song. The simple song, and singing it makes it real. Perhaps the spell of a cinema box office hit is after all the magic of the song that made it a script, production and hit. The song is more intoxicating! Drink to the spell, the idea or the words; or drink to the sounds of it. Think about it, heh, heh.


You can have girls and girls

You can have boys and boys

You can have sex and violence

You can have space age toys

You can have anything that you think will fit

As long as it’s box office, as long as it’s a hit


Covered in Writing

The writer’s feelings cannot be underestimated. I feel a sense of mystery and intrigue when I write stories. I am somewhere other than at my desk, in a feeling when I write…, like I am walking with boots on in deep snow, and I sense there is something mysterious going on.

In the Dirt

I imagine I feel I might be digging by a lakeshore about to uncover something of value. Uncovering much dirt, I discover and sift through remnants of old garbage, from a decades old picnic or campsite. I push aside buried rotten turkey bones and worn out tooth brushes to find a relic or gold and gems. I visualize my feelings, on the chore of writing and sitting here, sometimes feeling like I am scrambling through brush up a country hillside. When writing I feel tired, covered in this feeling of dirt. I rest for a moment and I feel refreshed free from that cling. Sometimes I feel only bright light and a sense of aha!

I think I tune in to use these feelings to live the writing event, forgetting that I am sitting there, grimacing, moving my eyebrows occasionally, and maybe smiling while facing a wall behind the desk, the whole time. I wonder how what we feel while writing shapes the writing? Feeling seems to have a cooperative effect, agreeable and tagging along as a good ‘ole buddy.

Covered in Writing

The covered words limit the exposure to my conscience.  There was something I meant to say. The words up and down coordinate the mess like some crossword puzzle in disguise. Beneath the chosen words, and the crossed out words lies the corpse.

Covered in Writing

Covered in black paper to hide,
he abruptly sprouted a manic universe
of everyman figures as bouncy as cheerleaders
but as faceless as paper dolls.

The atonal claims of the faceless everyman figures under their paper sun claim, “There’s gold in them thar’ hills.” The ideas float about as protoplasm chunks beneath the surface. If one notion touches my heart, I discover something as from a dream. Maybe the characters of the psyche shout “we love you!” I relax into the never ever. Now I write. The words capture gray shades of a distant setting. I pile words into sentences. Sentences merge into paragraphs following rules that I only vaguely hinted and they so adamantly pushed their pristine formations. Covered in writing, feeling dirty, the story has something pristine, well formed.

Consider Childermass from Jonathan Strange and Dr. Norrell written by Sussane Clarke. He was at one point tattooed with writing all over his body by unearthly creatures. It’s an intriguing read of bestsellers. It’s a long read but one that stays with you if you like the intrigue of magic spelled out in all it’s intricacy with unforgettable characters that seem to live in the room whilst the words are read.